Friday, December 26, 2008
Noah was born December 23, 2008 at 11:13am! He weighed 7lbs 2.4 ounces and measured 19 3/4. He is adorable! We will post more pictures later but here is a sneak peak.Both Mom and Noah are doing great and I'm so proud of them both.
I will give more updates about the birth and craziness that occurred, but first Mom and I must rest as we just got home and we are exhausted.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
This first picture is of the cake my mom made for the shower. Of course it has to be a Noah's Ark cake.
Mom and Dad also made three diaper cakes.
We received a special gift from Dad (Pop Pop) to Noah. He painted letters for the nursery.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
My dad painted her belly for Halloween. He's much more talented than we are so we recruited him. He had a blast, and while he was painting Noah was moving and kicking all around.
Here is a side view of Noah's house.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I have been extremely busy as of late. I have started taking classes through the United Methodist Church to become a Certified Lay Minister. Once I have completed the course which ends this time next year I will be able to do everything our Minister is able to do with the exception of sacraments which include baptisms and communion. We have ministry teams that support us through this process and this team and I are building a ministry that we can implement in our church setting. We have decided to work on adding a Contemporary Service and I will be able to give the sermons, which I am very interested in. I feel I have been called to do so and God has equipped me by placing things in my life to give me the ability to do so. I am very excited not only for our local church and what it can do for us locally but for the church in general. In our class alone there are 30 people, and there are classes being held throughout Baltimore and Washington. It's exciting to think what we all can do and supply to our communities with people starting ministries to visit the elderly, help and give support to the homeless, help lead and guide the youth, etc.
Monday, September 29, 2008
To catch everyone up. Little Noah is continuing to grow and continuing to get stronger by the day. I have been dying to be able to feel the little guy kick me. Morrisa had been feeling him kick for a while and I couldn't wait until he grew strong enough for me to feel that. I kind of felt left out. Well for the first time maybe 2 weeks ago I was able to feel his little kick which has been getting real strong as of late. I can't even explain the joy that filled me the first time I felt him. Also my Dad was able to feel him kick for the first time at play practice yesterday, which has made my Mom upset that she hasn't been able to yet. Usually when we see them he is sleeping because he seems to be the most active late in the evening and night. So when he is born he is probably going to be a night owl, but I don't mind at all. For as long as we have waited I don't care if we ever get any sleep.
Here's some pictures from our last ultrasound:
Morrisa is doing well and I would post some belly pictures which we have taken. Although last Thursday our neighborhood was graced by the presence of some hooligans that thought they were entitled to take whatever us and our neighbors had left in their cars. So they took off with our digital camera. I even told myself don't forget to grab that on the way in when we get home, and left it on the floor. We were pretty mad, especially because our neighborhood is a nice quiet neighborhood. I guess it goes to show you that you always have to stay on your toes. So until we get a new camera the belly pics will have to wait.
Softball is coming to an end for the year and I have started taking classes to become a Certified Lay Minister. Classes started this past weekend and will continue for another 5 weeks for this first semester. I Love IT so far!! I will post more about it later. I have to get back to work because my lunch is up.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Doozer is growing like a weed. Morrisa had a quad screen done which came back with good news that all was well. The only thing they wanted to investigate more was the screen for Downs. Which came back with a 1 of 39 chance for Doozer to have Downs. They sent us to a genetics counselor where they went over our family backgrounds and an in depth ultrasound where they measured everything. They measured the little belly, head, brain, heart, checked kidneys, etc. Everything measured where they are supposed to be at this point, and they don't think he/she has Downs. We wouldn't have cared either way, we would love him/her regardless, but it's good to get a clean bill of health. The sonographer (probably spelled wrong oh well) was able to tell us the sex of our little Doozer. Doozer is a boy!! We have named him Noah Michael, and he is already awnry. Now when we try to listen to him with the doppler he moves all over the place. It's too funny. Mo is just now starting to feel little poking feelings, and I can't wait until I get to feel him. We have been making trips to different baby stores and I hang out in the little boys section looking at all the little sports clothing.
We go back for another ultrasound on the 11th which was to be our big ultrasound. So we will verify the sex then, and we have to go back to the genetics counselor in another 2 or 3 weeks so they can measure his heart and look at all 4 chambers. He was a little bit too small this last time and you combine that with him being awnry and not turning the right way for her when she was trying to see his heart.
I will definitely update you when more comes up and I won't wait almost a month to do so this time. Also anyone who was reading my wifes blog and can no longer do so or contact her to get the password can let me know and I will pass on your info.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
"If they're leaving it in God's hands to carry the pregnancy full-term, then why did they choose to have science intervene to get pregnant in the first place? Perhaps infertile couples should get a clue and take their infertility as a sign that they weren't meant to have biological babies. Then they could pour the same amount of time, money and effort into adopting a needy kid or animal."
My Response: I'm just in shock at the immaturity of these responses. On second thought, no I'm not. What's your thoughts on medicine in general? By your comment are you saying that those battling an illness shouldn't persue any medication? They should just let nature play it's course and deal with whatever happens? Perhaps they should accept that they weren't meant to live. Give me a break. Your post was incredibly uncalled for and uneducated.
"I understand these people's desire to have their own children - to a point. Why is having your own biological child so important? There are plenty of kids in the world, in Baltimore in particular, who need homes and need to be loved. Why not consider adopting these lovable children? Why spend thousands of dollars on procedures that have marginal success rates? I know folks are going to say I'm heartless and insensitive but this practice is just plain selfish and wasteful."
My Response: I wouldn't say your heartless until you added the selfish and wasteful. That was heartless. Having gone through this myself I can add that yes there are a lot of children who are out there to be adopted, but there is also a lot that goes into adoption. It's not all that simple. You can't just say alright I can't have kids so I'll just adopt. It's a lengthy process and strict criteria. Also many people who go through infertility whether they are successful or not do adopt. It is more expensive to adopt in most cases than to proceed with treatments.
Other news: We went and saw my grandmother last night who is still in a rehab center recovering from her stroke. She seems to be improving. She has come a long way since I first saw her right after it happened, but she still isn't eating anything. In a way i don't blame her because some of the food there is nasty, but even stuff we bring in she only takes a couple bites. She also seems to be having problems with her short term memory. I hope and pray that she continues to improve and is able to come home at some point, but as of right now I'm not sure if that will happen. Please keep her in your prayers.
ALSO we have our first big ultrasound scheduled for August 11th at 5:30. I'm so excited and can't wait to find out if Doozer is a boy or girl!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
Of course I was a little bummed because I was hoping he would have done an ultrasound, but that didn't happen. I was spoiled at our RE's office with all the ultrasounds they did. Oh well I guess I'll have to wait until they do one week 18. :(
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Secondly Morrisa was contacted by a writer from the Baltimore Sun who is doing a story on infertility bloggers, and I also had the priveledge to speak with her yesterday and add my thoughts and feelings. They sent a photographer over to the house on Tuesday evening to take some pictures for the paper, and will be coming out shortly. I will share when it comes out and hopefully be able to add a link. We are very excited to be able to share our story and hopefully be able to promote awareness about PCOS and infertility.
Yesterday we hit week 13! Very excited about that and Doozer seemed to be also. We used our doppler and listened both in the morning and in the evening which was a treat. Usually we listen in the evening, but he seemed to be very active with a new strong heart beat and a lot of thumping sounds. Our next OB appt is scheduled for next Wed. and I'm hoping we get to have anouther ultrasound. Just to be able to see Doozer again.
Lastly I know I haven't been posting regularly and have apologized and promised before about being a better blogger, but this time I promise I'll write more often.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Anyway I will start with the fact that we received our doppler and we LOVE IT! We have made it an evening ritual to come home from work and listen to our little ones heart beat. Here's the video of it.
We were listening last night and you could clearly hear it moving. It was the coolest thing ever. It was neat because every time we would hear the different sounds of him/her moving the heart rate would raise from 172 to 183ish. I think getting the doppler was the best decision. Not only because we get to hear the little guy/girl every night but it really has helped calm some of Morrisa's anxiety waiting until our next dr appointment.
We have also been receiving little gifts from people, and it's been everything from maternity tops for Morrisa to diaper bag and clothes for the little one. The clothes for the little one have been from our family out in West Virginia, so they have all been WVU clothes. Which is alright with me since I have been slowly transformed into a WVU fan thanks to my cousin who is in the marching band. Here's our latest gift that arrived last night.
We received a jersey for myself, Mo, and little Doozer. The little jersey is so cute.
My grandmother has been moved to a nursing home closer to home for recovery from her stroke. She's improving some what. They have told us that she will be able to walk and is slowly getting to that point, but she may not regain the use of her left arm. The problem we are facing now is that she hasn't been eating anything. She will take a bite of something and that's all she will eat.
Also for those of you who also read my dear loving wife's blog I feel the need to shed some light on a topic she has brought up about the status of our house. For those of you who haven't read or don't follow my wife's blog she brought up the fact that our house is a mess. Since she has been so tired and with me playing softball we have neglected a few things. I should say it's cluttered and not dirty, but anyway she has mentioned that I have promised to do some picking up which hasn't been done as of yet. This is where I think some of the truth should come out. LOL I was about to do said cleaning when my wonderful wife said, "no, that's alright spend some time with me and clean later". So the cleaning didn't happen as of yet. Just wanted to shed some light on the subject. LOL
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
On the baby front, our doppler should be arriving by the end of the week. Hopefully we can post a recording of the heartbeat.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Speaking of doctor's appointments, we scheduled our next appt for Wed July 16th at 3:45. I will update and let you know when we are getting our doppler.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
I've been a terrible blogger lately. I haven't even had time to read others blogs and am so behind. I'm going to at some point this weekend catch up on everyone's blog's. I'm sorry. Things will be more like normal next week. Hopefully!
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
I never thought that this day would have ever come. I mean I have always dreamed of the day we would be discharged from our RE, but it always seemed just that, a dream. Today that dream has become a reality and we walked out of our clinic saying goodbye's. At least for now. It's a little weird. The appointment went great. We got to see Doozer again, and we've been looking forward to that since we walked out of our clinic last Wednesday. My how he/she has grown. Our RE said that everything looked great and that the baby is growing perfectly and it's heart rate was at 167 which was great! So now Mo has put a call into Kaiser so that she could schedule an appt with an OB. We had to make a decision whether we wanted to go with an OB that is located close to home and would deliver in a hospital that was closer, but wouldn't be as personalable and as understanding of our situation being infertile's. We also had a choice of going to the OB/GYN she has seen before which is right next door to Morrisa's job who has been awesome in the past and know's what we have been through throughout the years. The only thing with going with her would be we would have to deliver in Baltimore City which is 15-20 minutes from home. We have decided to go with the OB in Baltimore City so Mo is comfortable with her OB, which is really important to both of us. Will update when we find out more information, and will post a new picture of Doozer tonight.
Other news, my family has been hit pretty hard with bad news these last couple months. With the passing of my grandfather and his cousin the day before. Now another relative is in the hospital with cancer, which they were going to try to remove but weren't able to as it has spread all throughout his body and isn't going to make it much longer. Now my grandmother is in the hospital after she suffered a stroke last Friday afternoon. She has been improving the last couple days. She still has paralysis on her left side but able to talk more. The really hard part is that she was asking my dad yesterday if he was going to see my grandfather when he left the hospital. So she has no memory of him passing away. I hope and pray she continues to improve and with some help from the dr's or whomever we can find the best way to tell her that my grandfather is no longer with us. So many different stresses going on right now hopefully things quiet down for the weeks and months to come.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Now for some sports.
Un-fertility related we finally were able to play 2 softball games last night. I wasn't able to play at all last week due to the rain. We lost the first and won the second by a run. I hit 2 home runs and the rest of my at bats were good hits. 3 years ago I guess it was I shattered my ankle playing second base. The throw was high and as I came down on one leg and tried to make the tag, the base runner (which was my cousin) was sliding. Well with all my weight on one leg and the force of his body hitting my ankle the outcome wasn't good. Anyway back to last night, I played second base for the first time since. Surprisingly I felt great and made some really good plays. Up until last night I dreaded playing any infield at all, but had a blast and more confidence than before I broke my ankle. Good thing my parents and Morrisa wasn't there because they probably would have freaked out and left. Not wanting to see a repeat performance. So it was a good night and looking forward to tonights games. I will post the picture later this evening.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
We have an appt tomorrow morning for our second u/s. I'm so excited and hope all is going well. I know everything is fine. I just have a feeling that all is going to progress like it should. I will update with all the details tomorrow.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Mountains here we come!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Another note my mom called last night and said that my grandmother who has been pretty good since the passing of my grandfather, and she had a message for Mo. She had been watching the news and there was a story that pregnant women shouldn't talk on cell phones. She couldn't remember why & what happened if they did but all she heard was that they should use cell phones, and had to let Mo know right away. Shes too cute.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Aren't they beautiful?
As we were admiring Samson the baby elephant we looked up to see 5 planes flying over spelling out "GEICO". At first we thought it was a message from God. LOL
And below is the talkative cheetah we had the pleasure to spend time with. If you listen real close at the end you can hear his little squeak.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Morrisa has been extremely tired these past couple days which is a good sign. With my softball schedule I'm out of the house 3 days a week, so the house needs some picking up. Tonight I will be a good hubby and pick up so she can rest and take it easy. Speaking of softball it seems the three teams I'm playing for have all hit a slump as the past 2 weeks. All 3 of them haven't won a single game. It doesn't bother me really. I'm just having a blast going out and playing the games. That's all that matters to me. Luckily I play on teams where everyone is the same way. I've played on pretty competitive teams and they've all have bad attitudes. You really don't look forward to spending your free time watching a bunch of adults yelling at each other and throwing stuff everywhere because someone was thrown out going for an extra base.
Anyway I will update as soon as I hear the beta results tomorrow. Bring on the weekend!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
Friday, May 9, 2008
I've been thinking of a good blog to post, and I think my next blog will be about my life. We've talked about recent events in infertility, and I thought I'd take you back to the beginning. So look for that to come up. Everyone have a great weekend. Tomorrow we have a mother's day picnic for my grandmother, and Sunday we're going to Morrisa's mom's house for mother's day.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Anyway Morrisa tested again last night and this morning (since we have never received a positive it's fun to test and see it) and both were positive. We even tried a digital and it said "Yes". We were hesitant to try the digital because all of the ones we took before were so mean with their "NOT PREGNANT" messages.
I'm glad it's Thursday! Bring on the weekend! We lost our 2 softball games last night. Oh well you can't win them all. I played good and hit another home run. That makes back to back nights with a homer. WooHoo!
Another song I love! Tunnel by Third Day http://youtube.com/watch?v=IXAAiSoBweU
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
I think we both were in shock and we both started crying. We were both so excited but I felt bad because I was extremely excited and yet I was kind of holding back my excitement at first. I felt that the infertility has kind of cheated me of how I should be feeling. We should be jumping for joy and planning all this baby stuff, a room, furniture, a wish list of stuff. Yet we know all too well what could go wrong.
So we went to my softball games still excited and dwelling on the what if's. We lost the first game 15-5 but returned the favor the second game beating them 35-8. I had to throw some sports in there. I hit a monster home run, which Morrisa missed because she was busy talking with the other fans. Some fans huh? Just kidding.
Anyway we tested again this morning dreading that something was going to change. It looked just as the other did last night. We're so excited and so scared. I guess it's normal though. Below is the picture of the 2 side by side.
Now I can't wait for the beta and hope it comes back with strong numbers. I sure hope Doozer dug!
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Friday, May 2, 2008
Anyway today has been good. Thanks to all of you wonderful people out there she is feeling more hopeful and I woke up this morning feeling my optimistic self. You combine the two and it makes for a good start to the weekend. The chant continues, "Dig Doozer Dig".
Thursday, May 1, 2008
I thought that I would share with you my song of the day.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
We just got a call with our transfer time for Monday. We are scheduled for 1pm. Also we asked about the state of our embies, and she said that all 10 are doing excellent. She said some were 6 cell, some 8 cell, and some were beginning to compact. We are so proud of our little embies!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Yup, that's what I am! Chicken Little! So when we triggered the other night I was to give Morrisa the shot. I mean that's why I have been the giving her the sub-Q shots to work myself up to the IM shots. I couldn't bring myself to give her the shot. I forgot to mention this earlier. I was reminded as I was about to give Mo her first Progesterone injection and simply handed her the needle. I just can't get past the size of the IM needles. Oh well. She seems to not have any problem doing it herself, so don't fix it if it ain't broke right? Thank you everyone for your kind comments!
Anyway, around 10:50 I was allowed to go back into the recovery room to see Morrisa. She was really groggy, but was in good spirits. The doctor who did the retrieval came in and said that they were able to collect 16 eggs!! She also said that she drained about 4cc's of fluid which was from pre-hyper-stimulation. She said that she doesn't think there is anything to be concerned about but to keep an eye out for any symptoms for the next couple days.
We're both home now and Morrisa is recovering on the couch where I get to baby her for the remainder of the day. We should hear from a nurse tomorrow with the fertilization results and how many eggs mature.
Other news my dad's surgery went very well and he is recovering and was up walking a little today. Also I'm a little ticked off that the Washington Capitals lost last night and are no longer in the playoffs! Oh well there's always next year.
Monday, April 21, 2008
We went back in this morning and the follies have grown and the ones on the right side seem to be the growing pretty consistently. All seem to be between 22-20, so it looks like we are going to be triggering tonight. WooHoo!! We still have to wait to hear the official word from our nurse but that's the way it looks as of now. That would put the egg retrieval taking place on Wednesday. I can't believe that we're finally approaching this stage of the process.
This is the start of a busy week for us as my dad goes in tomorrow to have his other hip replacement, replaced. He had his his left hip replaced back in October I believe it was. He originally has both hips replaced years ago and the plastic has worn down so they are replacing all of the hardware. He said it's no where near the pain and recovery he had during his original surgery, which is good. He was up and back at work after 3 weeks from his last surgery in October.
Then we have the egg retrieval on Wednesday (hopefully) and if they do a 5 day transfer which we're praying for we will have the transfer on Monday. So now we wait for official word from our nurse.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
I'm going to go find some Advil, Asprin, Tylenol, conference room floor to lay on, anything to help feel more comfortable.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Also I started softball last night and we won our first 2 games of the season. This is the first season I am playing on 3 different teams. So I'm playing 2 games on Tuesday, 2 games on Wednesday, and 2 games on Saturday. My legs are already killing me and that's only after 2 games. We'll see how tonight goes.
I promise I will be a better blogger and update more often.
I also want to send out a huge congratulations to Jon and his wife who just announced Monday that they got a BFP!!!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
We had my grandfather's viewing on Thursday and it was packed. Then the funeral on Friday which was more of a celebration of his life which had the church so packed there was people standing around the sanctuary and out the door. Even though there were also a lot of laughs shared as everyone recalled the good times. It was an amazing ceremony.
On Saturday we had my B-Day party which was a blast! It was great to see everyone from out of town that we don't get to see that much of. We even got my grandmother out on the dance floor and she boogied down to the awesome 70's music our DJ had going. It was good to she her having a good time.
All in all these last few days have been tough but good times spent with family and friends! Now I'm hoping we can start our stims tomorrow so that we can get on our way to hopefully bringing some good news to everyone.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Monday, March 31, 2008
Today is the beginning of a very busy week. Sunday I turn 30 and Saturday as most of you have heard my wife and mother are throwing a party. So we have relatives coming from out of town and staying with us so we have to prepare for that. On top of all of this my grandfather who had a good week last week had a bad day yesterday so we still have his health to worry about. I can't wait until March is over with!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Speaking of time moving slow, it seems as though Morrisa has been on BCP forever now. I know it hasn't been that long since she started taking them but I've always been an impatient person when it comes to something that I'm excited about. Although I have become a more patient person thanks to the infertility. How's that for finding something good out of something that has caused so much emotional and physical pain not only to the two of us but those close to us. Well the physical pain has been endured by my lovely wife, what a trooper!
My grandfather has been home since Monday and hasn't been sleeping well and it is really showing. My parents live right next door and can see in through their kitchen window and into their living room where his hospital bed is setup. My mom said that last night they kept glancing over and everytime they did they saw my grandmother standing watching him sleep. So dad went over to talk to her to take her mind off things. She's taking everything so hard and understandably so. They have been married for 60 years. She's also been having trouble with her memory lately which is adding to the stress of the family. We're hoping and praying that she doesn't have the beginnings of Alzheimer's. Her mother had it and I know she's always worried about having it herself. I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. It means a lot to have support out there.
Monday, March 24, 2008
I also thought I would post a picture I took of the inter-muscular needles. We are so used to seeing the subQ needles that these were a shock! I'm glad it's not me getting the shots. Sorry babe!
None IVF news. My grandfather is coming home from the hospital today. Due to his non-Hodgkin's lymphoma his body is fighting and killing off all of his platelets leaving his body without red or white blood cells. Last we heard before he went to ICU was that his platelet count went up with his intial transfusion but continued to drop since. I'm not sure if those numbers have been holding steady or if they went up, but he said that he wants to come home because there is something he wants to do before he passes. Nobody has any knowledge what this is that he wants to do but as long as he is comfortable we all respect his wishes. We went to be with him yesterday and his spirits haven't been down the whole time he was in the hospital. He's been his normal self joking around with us and the nurses. So we'll see how the week goes.
Other exciting news for me at least is that softball season is about to start back up. Usually in the spring I will play on a coed team at church and an all mens team, but this season I may be playing on an additional team which would have me out of the house for 3 days out of the week. So we'll see if Morrisa is alright with this. :)
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
IVF news: Morrisa is still taking birth control pills (BCP) which is making her feel sick. I feel so bad for her because before it was the Metformin that was making feel sick and now add the BCP's on top of that. Hopefully her body will adjust and she won't have to deal with these side effects. We go in tomorrow for our mock embryo transfer at 8:30. I'm kinda excited because to me it's another step toward the real transfer. Like always I'm going into this very hopeful, but that's me always being the optimistic one. I know Morrisa is also excited but has some her fears which are valid, but it's also her way of preparing for what ever the outcome is. I completely understand how she feels.
Well I gotta run for now.
Friday, March 14, 2008
3/13-4/2: Take BCPs
3/31: Start Lurpon
4/8: b/w & u/s and start stims
4/19: Egg retrieval
4/22: 3 day transfer or 4/24 5d day transfer
This weekend we are singing which is exciting. I was talking with one of the youth in our church last night about getting his band to play for a contemporary service a few of us are planning. Not to ramble on too much but I have signed up for a course for "Laity Ministry" the conference is offering which would allow me to preach and do weddings,funerals, and so on in the church. They haven't set a date on when this course is starting but I can't wait. I'm going to find a way to post sermons I have done so anyone can access them.
Hopefully once the clock hits 4:45 and I can leave, time will slow down and the weekend doesn't fly by like it always seem to do.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
On the infertility front AF has finally visited my wife. For those not up to date with code words she has her period. When we started infertility treatments my wife all of a sudden used these abbreviated code words and I would just stare at her not knowing what in the world she was saying. LOL It was like this secret foreign language that only her and her friends knew. Anyway we're finally starting our IVF journey. She called this morning and her nurse will call back with her protocol so I will keep everyone up to date as soon as we hear something.
Friday, March 7, 2008
I'm so glad it's Friday, I thought today would never come. On top of that we don't have anything planned other than relaxing and probably cleaning the house. My cousins are coming to visit the family for the weekend, but other than that we finally get to relax. Hopefully my wife can get over her cold and enjoy the weekend without coughing up a lung.
On the IVF front we're still waiting for AF so she can start taking birth control. It made no sense to me at first WHY she has to be on birth control when we're trying to have a baby, but it makes more sense now. It keeps everything calm and quiet so when they start the meds they a better response. I think. :) I'm anxious to finally start the IVF process. We have waited for this for so long. Right now I'm very optimistic, and my wife will tell you that I'm always the optimistic one in the relationship. No matter what the situation even if there was a 98% chance of something not happening, I'm still holding onto that 2% and in my head theres still a chance. With that said though I know when we finally start that optimism slowly turns to a cautious optimism, and then the worrying and stress really begins.